But be transformed by the renewing of your minds...

Saturday, August 13, 2011

The Journey of a Thousand Miles

Tomorrow is the big day! I move into my new apartment with Cherish tomorrow! I'm so excited. I can't wait to start a new adventure out on my own. This is going to be fun! And yes. To all of you who are wondering, all my sentences must end in an excaimation point!
I am a little sad about leaving my family, but I'm not too far from them so I can visit often. I am definitely ready to start to move on with certain aspects of my life. Things have been stressful lately, this whole moving out thing did not help on that front at all. However, I am hoping that certain things will close themselves with time and distance.
At times like these, I like to think about Deuteronomy 31:6
"Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you."
It's hard to remain hesitant about anything when reminded of this verse. My mom always quotes Romans with "if God is for us, who can be against us." Thanks to my upbringing, I feel confident that this next year is going to be a very differnt experience.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Tomorrow Will Worry About Itself...

You know those days that make you cry out to God because you just feel so helpless you don't know what else to do? I had one of those yesterday. I was frustrated. I was angry. But how many of us forget that God is not someone to turn away from us when we need Him? When was the last time you talked to God before you talked to your best friend about something that happened to you? I find it that more people blame God for things that have the Devil's stamp all over it. I've been struggling with that lately. So many things  have been getting in the way of my relationship with God, and then I take a step back and realize, its only me in the way...

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Lately something has been pressing on my mind and I think it has a large part to do with the fact of where I am in my life right now. I know everyone complains about money problems. I've been one of those people, but why is it that I feel differently about this concept than everyone else.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matt. 6:34

I don't know about the rest of you, but I've always interpreted this verse in several ways.
1. There's the literal meaning, do not worry.
2. You have no control over tomorrow so there's no point in worrying about it.
The third way I've always thought about this takes the verse one step further. I've always associated this verse with financial meaning, although, in context, I don't believe it's talking about money.  But doesn't it make sense? I understand the point of saving money and having a fallback, but
3. Money will always be around. You can always make more. So why be in such a rush to have it all at once?
Lately, my family has been really hounding me about my financial means. I'm like most everyone else. I come from a middle class family and I've never been ashamed of that. I'm about to move out, I just got a new car, and I'm in college. Stereotypically I should be the most broke person you've ever met. I guess its just really getting to me that my mom thinks I have no clue how to run my own finances. It's not like I saved every penny I had to go to Germany for a month or something. It's not like I saved from the second I got back from Germany so that I could buy a reliable car or anything. I guess I just don't understand how she can still think so negatively when I've proven several times over that I can do this.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Night Owl

For some reason, I stayed up until two last night. I don't know what possessed me to do so. Actually, I was helping out a friend so I kind of don't regret it. =] Last night I did receive my new car. Well... new to me anyway. It is perfect! I'm really excited to start cleaning on it.
Also, only twelve more days until I move in to a new apartment for the first time. I've been doing LOTS of praying about this event because this closes the chapter of one part of my life and opens a brand new page that I have little to no experience in. Needless to say... I'm nervous.
When I was younger, my mom would tell me that the best way to get rid of your fears is to sing. She would tell me to sing hymns I knew or just any happy song might do. I think I've been getting on the general public's nerves with all the singing I've been doing lately. However, my mom and I have always been able to connect in that unique way. I used to be a music major and though my major has changed, my passion has not. I love music of all kinds... except rap. That's not music. I'm just putting my foot down.
Anyway, this will be a shorter post because I'm going to go see if I can enroll... Wish me luck.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Inspiration

Good morning beautiful!
I was reading a friend's blog this morning (actually it's my future roommate's blog) and I decided it was time I started blogging again. I had forgotten how fun it actually was... Then again, the last time I had a legitimate blog was back in the day when Xanga was popular. Anywho, to get this blog rolling I'll start by telling you that it has been one roller coaster of a summer. I went to Germany for a month on a mission trip with my future roommate, Cherish, and a few other wonderful people I met in college. Five weeks away from home really changes your perspective on life I'll tell you that. I work at a very local grocery store where I've been struggling to learn how to be a good manager all summer. > . <  I'll let you know when I get a handle on that one... And, if you happen to know me well personally, you'll probably know that I have the worst luck with cars in the history of forever! Recently, I've been trying to find a car that will get me back and forth without a fear of it randomly breaking down. I thought I had found one this weekend but its not turning out so well. Just to give you a more detailed history, I've had four wrecks, three of which totaled the car I was in. Only two of which were actually my fault. I've gotten three tickets, one for not having my seat belt on, which was lame, one for following too closely, and one for running a red light. The latter two were actually tickets attached to wrecks. So you see, I'm not the best driver in the world. But neither is anyone else... so I'm genuinely interested, tell me readers, how do you deal with car troubles?
Complete change of subject:
I move in to my new apartment with Cherish in two weeks. Am I ready? Mentally? Yes! Packing wise? Wait... I have to pack?! Yeah... We're getting there. Hopefully I will have all my material possessions worth taking packed up soon. Slowly but surely it's coming together. So, two weeks till I move in, three weeks till my birthday and school starts (same day), and if my prayers are answered, I'll have a car by the end of the day.
Have a Blessed Day!